Little Eyes are Watching...

I never thought being a mommy would be so rewarding, so challenging, and so cherishing. Knowing that you are the only one that has been "bonded" to them since their heart first had its beat. To be the only one that has felt their very first movement inside of you. Or to have a conversation with a 2 year old - having her to tell you that her baby doll broke the puzzle and not her. I love cherishing the littlest memory of my daughter. She cooks me eggs and puts ketchup on them for me (in her play kitchen of course!). Her wanting you to play with her, or when she can't find you in the house she starts to say, "Momma where are you?". I love her kisses, her hugs, and her little voice saying, "Wuv you." The thing I cherish most is when I catch her copying my actions. Whatever I do - she does. If I smile, she smiles, if I wink, she tries to wink. This is rewarding and scary at the same time. To know that some one so little, so fragile, so modable is watching your smallest gesture, attitude, and actions. It gives me a sense of strength. It makes me want to be the best mother in the world to her. I want to be a godly example before her eyes so that she will know what life is really about and how handle every situation. I want her to know how much God loves her and cares for her. How that He will be with her no matter what comes her way. When I sit and think of the responsibility that God has given me as a mother. It can overwhelm me. I think, "what if I mess up?" "What if I miss out on something in her life, because I got so busy with myself?" That is why I pray everyday for her, and for me. That God will give me the strength and the wisdom to always stand before her as a godly example. I know I will not be perfect before her, but I don't want to be either. I want her to see me as "not perfect" But, to see me as someone who knows how to admit my errors, my faults in the right attitude. You will never teach a child about life if you only spoon feed them the "happy" moments. They need to know that life does have disappointments, but that they can overcome the disappointments. What a blessing and a treasure it is to have children.